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My Heart Hurts


Wednesday, March 30, 2016

So I took a day off from blogging yesterday to gather my thoughts and just have a day to process everything.

Monday started off crazy with a bad commute into work. The snow let up and I was able to have a partially clear drive back to Reno. I had a follow-up post op and my incision and belly are looking really good. My swelling is down, my belly button is in, the numbness is getting better and the pain is lessening each day.

I then ran out to get the girls diapers and yogurt. They were out of both at daycare. Then I treated myself to a facial. I was going to cancel it since I could save the money (and need to, hello taxes), but I have been really stressed lately and Rory told me to keep the appointment.

I came home, cooked dinner and we watched an episode of The Americans (we are two weeks behind). Then we decided to go to bed. It wasn't until we crawled into bed that Rory told me he had some bad news for me. He was going to wait until the morning, but couldn't hold it in any longer.

Horrible thoughts ran through my head, but they weren't even close to what he told me.

Rory's great aunt passed away that afternoon. He found out right after he got home from work and didn't want to ruin the rest of my day.

You know that amazing Mexico trip we are taking in less than two weeks? That was the trip we were going to go visit Rory's great aunt, introduce her to our girls (she sees pictures all the time) and enjoy the Mexican sun.

And now she is gone. Now my girls won't get to meet her, I won't hear her crazy stories or have an afternoon cocktail with her (something we have done on every visit with her out on the deck). 

Mare' was an amazing woman. I may have only gotten to spend a few weeks with her in my lifetime, but she has forever made an impression on my life.

Rory's parents were flying out Friday to have a week with Mare (his great aunt) and Conrad before we arrived. They are still going to Mexico come Friday and will spend their time with Conrad, make the necessary arrangements and figure things out. I wasn't sure if we were going to go anymore, but Rory's parents and Conrad still want us to go. It may be our last time to stay in Mare and Conrad's other condo and we want to celebrate Mare. It will still be an amazing Mexico vacation, but there will be a huge piece missing.

So while she may not be my immediate family, her passing has hit me like a ton of bricks. My heart hurts for her and Rory's family.

Rory wrote a FB update and he said it perfectly...

34 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss Danielle. She sounds like such a wonderful lady and although the girls won't get to meet her they will know all about her through you and Rory.

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    1. Thank you Jess. I can't wait to share the photos and things from Mares life with the girls.

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  2. Danielle, I'm so sorry for your loss! What an incredible lady. I know y'all will miss her dearly! Thinking about y'all in the days to come.

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  3. I'm so sorry for your loss. So hard to lose a loved one so suddenly.

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    1. Thank you Jenny. It is rough, but so much rougher for my husband and his family.

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  4. I am so, so sorry for your loss, Danielle.

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  5. Oh friend prayers for your loss. I know how hard this must be.

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  6. I'm so sorry to hear this news - thinking of you and your family!

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss Danielle. She sounds like an incredible lady and I'm sure you will tell your girls all about her as they grow up and keep her spirit alive. Sending you hugs, my friend. xoxo

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    1. Thank you Jess. And yes we will share her with our girls. She was an incredible lady.

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  8. Oh, I'm so sorry. She sounds like such a fun & lively woman. Thinking of you, Rory & family.

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  9. Oh Danielle, I'm so sorry for your loss. And what crazy timing. I will keep you and your whole family in my prayers.

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    1. I know, right? Just so sad that we were that close to seeing her. It really sucks.

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  10. I am really sorry for your loss Danielle- Holly @ Pink Lady

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  11. Oh no, I'm so sorry to read this. :( Life is unpredictable and so often unfair. Sending my thoughts to your family, so sorry for your loss.

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    1. Thank you Jen. You are right...life is unpredictable. That is for sure.

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  12. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you'll all be able to get together in Mexico and share memories and celebrate her.

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    1. Thank you Mattie. And I am looking forward to Mexico even more now so we can celebrate her. Hope you are doing ok as well.

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  13. I'm so sorry for your loss! I can only imagine - hang in there! #hugs
    Kate :: A Little NW Charm

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  14. I'm so sorry for your loss. She sounds like an incredible woman that made a lasting impression on so many!!

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    1. Thank you Biana. She really was an incredible woman!

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  15. I'm so sorry for your family's loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

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  16. So sorry for your and Rory's loss.

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  17. So sorry for your and Rory's loss.

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  18. So sorry for your loss! You're in my thoughts and prayers <3

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