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Confessional Thursday


Thursday, March 17, 2016

Happy St. Patrick's Day lovelies. While I will not be partaking in any festivities today (#momlife), I will be partaking in another round of Confessional Thursday. Wanna join in on the fun? Link up with Jess here.

I confess that I need to get away. To get away from my job, get away from this wind, rain and snow and this major funk that I am in. Everything seems to be stressing me out and it is finally taking its toll on me.

I confess that I am overwhelmed with how much money I am going to have to shell out next month. Where is it going to come from? Out of thin air or my ass? Taxes are due, car registration is due ($380), season tickets for football, our Mexico trip and our normal expenses. Childcare is expensive. And we put in a request for the girls one week off from daycare next month, so we could get a break on childcare, but it was denied since next month is the girls one year anniversary there. You can't use it until AFTER their one year hits which is April 20th. Ugh. Why does it all come at once?

I confess that ever since I didn't get my promotion at work, my heart hasn't been in it at work. It was such a let down and I am constantly reminded that I didn't get it by the douche bone that did. #willheevershutup

I confess that I am in a dinner rut. I like to make dinner at home because it is easier with the girls, cheaper and less time, but figuring out new recipes is tough. Mainly because we like the same things over and over again. Mexican, Italian and burgers. What are your favorite weeknight dinners?

I confess that not going to the gym the last three weeks has taken its toll on my mental health. I love going to the gym to relieve my stress and things that are weighing on my mind. I went yesterday (a few days earlier than I was supposed to), but I was only able to walk on the treadmill and about 5 minutes of the elliptical. Baby steps.

I confess that I am scared to go on my work trip next month. I don't know how I am going to spend a week away from my girls. And since I won't be in the country, I won't get daily text messages with their pictures or get to facetime them everyday. It will literally break my heart.

I confess that the movie Room weighed heavy on my heart. I just can't even imagine what happened with Joy and Jack. It makes me worry and fear for my children when they get older. I just hope we instill the dangers of strangers to our children enough.

I confess that my husband's birthday is next week and everything I have tried to do for his birthday or get him has fell through. I feel like the world's worst wife and need to get my shit together for his birthday. Ugh.

And those are my confessions. Sorry for the downer confessions, but this is the time I feel like I can really just get it out there and not have judgements.

Don't forget to link up.

36 comments:

  1. Let me just go right ahead and say I just paid my car registration 5 minutes prior to reading this. I can't believe yours is $380! The state will do anything to take your monies though :)

    My favorite weeknight meal is one pan baked chicken. I marinate my chicken in Lowry's garlic/herb for like 15-20 minutes and then throw it on a foil lined baking sheet with whatever veggies I have on hand (tossed in some evoo and s&p). Bake at 350 for 20-25 min or until the chicken is cooked through. Sometimes I make some rice on the side but it's super easy and even easier to clean up!

    Keep it up girl. Don't let life get you down, your girls will be there when you get back more excited as ever to see you :)

    xox, Jess @ Red White and Sass

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    1. Yes. Nevada gouges the heck out of us for registration.

      I love using foil lined sheets for easy clean up. I will have to make that. Simple and easy and great for weeknights. Thanks!!

      Thanks for stopping by. I can't wait to check out your blog!

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  2. $380?! Oh my goodness! Daycare wouldn't give you a break? That stinks! At least Mexico is soon! :)

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    1. Yes Nevada has one of the most expensive registration rates. Sucks so bad. And no daycare won't let us use our free week until June. I mean it is good either way since we get a huge savings that month, but sucks that it couldn't be in April when I really needed it.

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  3. I need to get away, too!!!
    Our favorite weeknight dinner is poppyseed chicken casserole. SO good!
    $380 for a car registration? OUCH! Ours is $36!

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    1. Oh that sounds good. Do you have a recipe you can share or send to me? I would love a $36 registration!

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  4. when it rains, it pours!! goodness girl, you do have a lot on your plate! I seriously hope things get better for you and you get a break sometime soon. As far as traveling, will you be somewhere with wifi!? can you skype or facetime them through that!? Whenever I have traveled somewhere, I have shelled out the crazy $15/day or whatever just to have the comfort of wifi. May be a little out of reach with all your expenses next month, but hopefully you can come up with some kind of solution! Go get yourself a pedicure or something to relieve some stress! Sounds like you deserve it!
    So for weeknight meals, I use my crockpot more than I'd like to admit. Recently I found a recipe that is so super simple..literally dump some chicken breasts in a crock pot, a jar of salsa and a packet of taco seasoning. mix it around and let it cook on low (or high, if you want it faster!) and it turned out great!

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    1. Me too! I will have wifi so I can skype. I will be 10 hours ahead though, so it will be rough working it out. But we will make it work. I won't get to talk to them daily, but every couple days for sure. And my work will pay for the wifi, so that is something I will use for sure. I love the crockpot tacos. We make them often as well. Thanks for the advice. I really appreciate it.

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  5. Hang in there, mama! And I feel you on the car registration, KS is outrageous too!

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    1. That sucks that KS is just as expensive as Nevada. Ugh.

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  6. I'm with you on some of these! So stressed about all the bills and making sure I'm doing all the right things for the kiddo, and why can't I get a good job with all my education?! And why do I have to live in Canada...two plane rides away from my parents?! Meep. At least there's wine?!! ;)

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    1. We are definitely a lot alike. I wish I won the lottery or even a smaller pot lottery to live comfortably. Money woes are the worst. That sucks that you are so far from your parents. That is really tough and I can't imagine. And yes, at least you have wine.

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  7. I'm so sorry to hear about the daycare thing, so frustrating. I feel so bad for you about the work trip. I know that must be hard, and I definitely feel your pain. Hopefully you can Facetime with them at night or something. That's so rough. Hoping that Mexico gives you a little relief from all the stress. And, it sounds to me like the wrong person definitely got the promotion, but hopefully that means there is something better suited for you coming soon! Thinking of you!

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    1. I am super excited to go on my work trip because it is a place I have never been and one of my favorite parts of my job, but I will miss the girls. Rory tells me it is rough being away from them. But I keep thinking, at least I will get some sleep. Silver lining.

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  8. I'm sorry this is all coming down at once!! Life seems to do that, and I don't know why.. we just went through 3 trips to the shop because of car breakdowns, and 2 visits to Urgent Care.. so I feel your pain.. I'm like "ok, where is the tree the money grows on????" Ugh. I wish I could help you in the meal planning dept, but we rely on some version of Mexican, Italian or burgers most nights too!!

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    1. Yes. December and April are our money months. So much money goes out that it stresses us out. I know I should prepare for it and save more in between, but I never do. Especially now with the girls. Haha. I need a money tree for sure!!

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  9. Sorry you are having a rough week. When I have to be away from my kids, my husband makes daily videos for me to watch when I get home. It's something to look forward to and I don't feel like I am missing out. Maybe that could help you.

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    1. Oh good idea. I would love to have those videos. I will be asking for that.

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  10. I feel like (minus the surgery, poor thing!) we are living the same things in life right now. I feel your pain! NOTHING stresses me out more than $. It will work out, it always does but I know how crazy stressful it can be. Hopefully your vacay will help get away from everything for a bit. Sending thoughts and prayers your way!

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    1. Thank you. I am looking forward to my vacation for sure. And I know that April always brings lots of bills. I just chose to ignore it until I can't anymore. Haha.

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  11. Oh girl, sorry you're having a rough week. You're right, that is SOOOO much money to have to worry about spending next month. Holy moly! And funny you say that about the car registration, because I literally just put mine in the mail earlier this week. And mine were almost as much as yours. It always hurts.

    Anyway, I hope that things get better for you soon! Hang in there!

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    1. Thank goodness others experience high registration fees too. I see some people's and think I need to move. It gets lower each year, but it still hurts. I just need a money tree or to win the lottery and I wouldn't stress as much. Haha.

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  12. Oh, I'm sorry things are tough. $380 for car registration? No break at daycare? Gees. On the bright side (literally speaking) you've got Mexico planned soon! Things always have a way of working out - keep in there!
    Kate :: A Little NW Charm

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    1. I am looking forward to Mexico, the warmth, sun and cheap meals. I have been saving for Mexico, so that is probably why I don't have money for anything else. Well we do, but we just know that next month is our tighter month. So lots of meals at home from now until end of April!!!

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  13. No judgements whatsoever, lady - I think we all can relate! I'm still mad about the promotion situation for you, too, and it's just the icing on the cake that the guy that got it is so irritating. I know it sounds corny but I TRULY truly believe in things working out for certain reasons, so just believe that something even better is on the horizon. So crazy jealous of your upcoming Mexico trip!

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    1. Thank you for not judging me. I didn't mean to be negative, but I wanted to vent and you ladies are amazing. I do believe that karma will catch him and that I have good things coming to me as well. I keep telling myself that!! And I am grateful for our Mexico trip. So grateful!!

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  14. That sucks that your daycare won't give you a break. If it's that close, why not? Mila gets a week off a year without us having to pay. For 2015, we didn't use it and it ran out, but we went on vacation in November. Our daycare let us use the week we essentially lost in September. Not cool that yours didn't work with you on it!

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    1. I know, right? We leave the 8th to the 16th and their one year is on the 20th. I feel they should have approved it. At least your daycare gave you the week even though it was later. That is awesome!!!

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  15. We do salmon and broccoli a ton on week nights. It takes 30 minutes and minimal effort and is so so healthy.

    I've been a downer lately too. Life just happens that way sometimes. Things will look up again.

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    1. I love salmon and I have a great recipe I posted about a week back. And salmon is so healthy. Do you bake yours? Grill it?

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  16. Hang in there mama! Things go in waves and I'm sure things will look up for you soon! We have been trying a few of the Buzzed Tasty dinners because their videos make everything look so easy and delicious! We're going to be making this one tomorrow I think: http://www.buzzfeed.com/alvinzhou/these-guacamole-chicken-bombs-are-wrapped-in-bacon-and-total?b=1#.ydx2rxm3x.
    Evelina @ Fortunate House

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    1. Oh those sound really good. Thank you for the advice and comfort!

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  17. Sweet friend I am sending you hugs! That totally sucks that you can't take advantage of the daycare break. Seirously? It's not that it's a far off date. Boo! I want to punch that jerk in the face! What an asshole. Not only did he harass you at one point, but not he's rubbing the promotion in your face. I'm so sorry! Hang in there friend! You can do this.

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    1. Thank you. I know I can do it. I just need to vent to you ladies and get it out there. It made me feel better. And it makes me feel better knowing that I have awesome bloggy friends who care about me!!!

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  18. Hang in there, lady! I'm glad that you guys will get to get away soon!

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    1. Thank you so much! I can't wait. 3 weeks from today!

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