But now that I am a year out, I thought I would divulge a little about where I am at now.
During pregnancy I gained 40 pounds. When I look at that number, I cringe (even though it is healthy for twins). I just didn't imagine that I would be pregnant with twins or even gain that much. But I did. And a lot of it was water weight and sugar weight (I ate all things sugar).
Losing the baby weight wasn't too bad. I held onto that water weight for a few weeks due to my c-section, but it came off pretty quickly. After four months, I was 10 pounds lighter than my pre-pregnancy weight. I have since gained some of those pounds back and I am hovering around my pre-pregnancy weight.
I still have loose skin on my stomach. No matter how many planks or exercises I do, I can't get the extra skin to go away. It doesn't look that bad. Only when I bed over can I see the ripples and not so tightness.
My boobs are awful. I am literally counting down the days until I can get a lift/boob job/augmentation. This has been one of the worst things for me post-partum. I used to be a 34D while on BC. Then I got off of it and I went down to a 34C (a large C). I was happy with it. Then I breastfed, pumped and had a breast abscess. Now my boobs are deflated balloons seriously in need of a lift and some life. I am barely a 34B now. Maybe a bigger A. Such a confidence killer. And I refuse to buy a new bra, so I rock my 34C bras and have gaps in them. I feel like a teenager who stuffs her bra, but I don't even stuff it.
Even though I am around my pre-pregnancy weight, I lack the muscles I used to have (and I am working on those at the gym), my thighs are thicker (but stronger. Must be the running/elliptical/stairs I am doing) and my waist is smaller (I am a zero now). I feel out of proportion.
My hair. I didn't have the thick hair while I was pregnant, but it stuck around and got thicker postpartum. Maybe the hormones, the pumping, prenatal vitamins, etc. I was really happy with it, but then I stopped pumping and it started falling out. I didn't notice it that much except when I had to sweep my bathroom floor a couple times a week. Or when I had to clean out my hair brush often. But that still didn't seem that bad. Until I started growing back the hair that I lost. And it is around my bangs and the framing of my face. I have so many "baby" hairs that it is hard to tame. And it makes me want to change my hair up everyday, but I hold back. DO NOT CUT YOUR HAIR (major cut, please trim it) until at least a year after you had your baby (per my hair stylist). I still don't think I will cut it. I am loving how long it is.
My scars are healing, but they are still very much visible and dark. I rub on scar creams on my scars at least once a day and I kneed them out (per my esthetician). My breast abscess one looks the best by far and it was done in March. My c-section is next best and my umbilical hernia is the worst. I can't wait to have them fade more and have an abdomen that looks semi normal.
My umbilical hernia has been a pain in the "tummy". Scar tissue causes discomfort, the scar is ugly and my belly button is half fixed I feel. But I said I would give it a year before going back and having a revision or laser it.
My hormones are back to normal. I went on the mini pill around 6 weeks postpartum and then back to my regular bc around 10 1/2 months postpartum. I vowed to never go on bc again after it wrecks havoc on my PCOS, but I don't want to get pregnant (for awhile or maybe never), it evens my hormones out, it makes me feel more like myself and I am too afraid to try other forms of birth control. So I will go with this now until we decide to have more children (and I know how to handle coming off of that now) or figure out something better. I am open to suggestions, so throw them at me.
And I think that is about it for my Year Postpartum. If you have any questions on any of the procedures I went through or any postpartum questions, feel free to ask. I am an open book.